Since I’ve lost my son Logan, there have been so many times I wished I could’ve gotten someone else’s perspective on the way I felt. With the pain, heartbreak and confusion I felt. Someone who had been through what I was going through. Don’t get me wrong, I have a very wonderful and supportive family who is always there for my daughter and I, but I just felt like I was missing something. God has been there the most for me though. Despite the anger, bitterness, and hurt I felt after Logan died. I felt at times in the beginning that God had abandoned me. I felt like he was getting back at me for the wrong doings I’d done in my life. But God kept showing me he still loved me through it all. There have been God Winks many many times and I trust him even though I wasn’t happy with all of it. The morning after Logan had his accident the first thing the police brought me was Logan’s Bible. He explained to me that when he looked in Logan’s car he saw his Bible. He told me he was not necessarily an active church goer, but with tears in his eyes he said when he saw that Bible untouched in the horrible wreckage of that car, he knew God was there even though I might not have thought so. Logan’s friend was saved. I like to say Logan turned the wheel just right to protect him. But I honestly owe it all to God. Jesus is our savior and if you believe in him he will protect you as well. Logan’s Bible was bookmarked to John Chapter 10 and that’s where I’ve always kept it now that I use his Bible. In John chapter 10, verse 11 Jesus said “I am the good shepherd: the good shepherd giveth his life for the sheep. ” And I know that God did not kill my son, evil did. 2 Corinthians is scripture I’d like to have people think about. Thank you Kelly my sister for bringing up this great scripture. in 2 Corinthians Chapter 1 verses 3-7 read: “Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort. Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ. And whether we be afflicted, it is for your consolation and salvation, which is effectual in the enduring of the same sufferings which we also suffer: or whether we be comforted, it is for your consolation and salvation. And our hope of you is steadfast, knowing, that as ye are partakers of the sufferings, so shall ye be also of the consolation.” What beautiful words! From the moment Logan died I always have tried to help others through it. His poor friends. Them all being so young and heartbroken. My daughter, who probably was more supportive to me than me to her. My family and friends, whom I couldn’t have done it without. But my faith in Jesus Christ my savior is what has really got me through everything. I don’t know if I’d be here if he wasn’t right here with me. I am hoping that this blog will allow others to be here for each other because I know too well that it’s so important and special to have someone there to say It’s going to be ok. I’ve also always worn his church camp bracelet he had on when he died. It says “One Thing” PHI 3:13. This is from Philippians 3:13 and reads: “Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before.” This is exactly what Logan was doing. After reaffirming his salvation with Jesus, he was on his way to greatness! He was an amazing son, and I hope this blog will allow me to share his story to touch others that need to feel the love. Thank you for coming to my blog and I hope you find comfort and peace!